30 September 2009

I regret it

I think you're totally stupid because you've wasting your time just becuase of her. Really pity of you. But I will wait for you to said it again forever. It's just because I love you forever like I always told you long ago.

-siapa makan cili, rasa pedasnya-

26 September 2009

I will try

I dont know why yesterday was like ****. Damn suck it. Hiba tahu hati ni? So, I just lepak in my room. And opened my photo album. A lot of precious memories with my old friends and my best friends and also my ex bestfriends. Tiba- tiba rasa nak cancel date hari ni. Tak de mood nak keluar dengan Bieee. I texted him and said

"Sorry, I dont want to hangout tmrw. I dont feel good, so maybe next time we can go out. Lagi pun hari-hari jumpa en. Im so sorry* xo"
Then he replied just two words "its ok". Of course I rasa bersalah. Even hari-hari jumpa, but I miss him. Means, I miss the old of him. I think, we were not meant for each other. Then, my tears roll down. Huh. Tiba-tiba si Aliff dodol texted ajak gayot. Memang tak kena time betul mamat ni. Gayot sekejap then "bye" terus tertidur. Ngeh, still wait for Biee to text me*

BFF pundek

















I just came back from Bukit Tinggi. I went there with Hamis, Hamis's sister and Rasyiqah. Three of us supposed went to Amali's house but we were like lazy to go there so we decided to follow Hanis's family beraya. It's fun you know. Plus I miss Hamis so bad. And yeah we got many duit raya than others because dengan rela hati mencuci pinggan & cawan di sinki. Haha.
Tak banyak story pasal kat Bukit Tinggi. I just nak story pasal apa yg three of us buat di rumah Uncle Mat Tohit. Aha lepas I took a nap about 1 1/2 hour, I iron baju kurung. Kena buat sendiri sebab bibik lari rumah eh tak bibik cuti. Gedik jee! Then, kemas rumah before melangkah keluar rumah. Abah hantar pergi rumah Hamis.
Bila I dah sampai terkejut sebab Hamis tiba-tiba buat muka excited. Eh rupanya baju kami nak dekat sama. Haha. She's pink. Makan sambil tengok Jonas Brother kesayangan I. Then naik atas ke bilik 'anak dara'. Cehh. Online sama-sama. Baca belog ex bf I sama-sama. Buka my ex's profile kat ms, merepek-repek apa ntah. Buka ms Hamis punya abang senior, lagi merepek apa ntah. Kritik sana sini. Takpe, sekali sekala. Lastly, off sama-sama. Hebat? Auww, terima kasih
(suara garau)
I sakit hati gila dengan dorang nih (bukan Hamis & Rasyiqah). Ni topik lain sila ambil perhatian. Korang dah lah bff aku tapi perangai macam taik. Ajak teman pergi Jusco pun susah. Bukan ajak pergi Sunway punn en. Padahal kau bukan buat pape pun kat rumah. Malu konon dengan dia. Pergi mati jauh-jauh. Itu nama nya gedik tahu? Kau fikir kau lawa sangat ke? Ha ambik kau. BFF taik adalah. Cover tak henti-henti. Lepas tu macam takde perasaan kan.
"Aku taknak pergi. Malass ahh"
Kau nak kena pelempang ke sekarang? Cuba kalau aku cakap macam tu. Sakit hati kan? Ni ke kawan? Rasyiqah & Halida seribu lebih baik dari kau la weh. Sakit hati tahu tak? (sigh)

17 September 2009

Happy Hari Hantu Raya

Phewit phewit hantu raya dah nak dekat. Jangan pelik jangan jelik jangan rasa apa-apa. I panggil hari raya sebagai hari hantu raya sebab budak-budak kecoh hantu raya datang malam raya. Eh betul eh? Ah, gue nggak percaya *aha, sudah! Indon la pulak*

Sekarang masih menanti kepulangan Hamis tersayang la sangat. Tapi kita tak dapat jumpa di pagi hari raya maybe. Mesti time Hamis baca entri ni, I dah blah berfoya-foya di Kg Titi Teras, Kedah. Eh gurau, haha. Tadi main bunga api. Waawa, excited gila! Ulang lagi EXCITED! Haha bunga api dah kecoh. Takpe, nanti kita main Puan Mariam Buluh*. Haha sebenarnya nak taip : Takpe, nanti kita main meriam buluh. Ok saja cari pasal dengan Puan Mariam. Dendam lama- jom gadoh?

Kad raya yang anda dapat lihat bila dah scroll ke bawah, sila print then tulis bahawasanya I yang hantar kat you all. Ngeh ngeh, penat tahu carik benda alah ni? Nak pink jugak! Pink jugak! Pink jugak! Hidup piggy pink! Haha gurau ok.

Lepas ni, nak pergi rumah bff, then pergi bakal "family-in-saw" ku haha means rumah Abu a.k.a Hardcore Hebat a.k.a Emarah pundek.

Ucapan from my brothers and I (buat lagu royal sikit) haha:

Azman Jaafar (12 years old) : Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua budak-budak yang gojos gila di luar sana. Phewit - phewit. Ampunkan jika ada salah dan silap. Semoga belog gojos ni terus maju macam kakak gua - Atika Allen. Haha XD

Afif Jaafar (6 years old) : Terima kasih Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Kakak, nak kena tulis apa lagi? Itu je kan? Bai.

Adam Jaafar (4 years old) : (Sambil malu-malu kucing) Happy Hari Raya. (-.-')

Atika Allen Jaafar (owner of the belog) : I nak ambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf zahir dan batin. Maafkan kalau tersalah bahasa mahupun termoody tak bertempat ataupun terpekik di telinga . Especially to :

family : memang anak yang gojos ni selalu gila. Maaf :)

bff : You all memang selalu kena layan karenah I yang agak *tuuut*, terima kasih. I love bff* (xo)

classmate : waduh, thank you for everything especially Dhurga, Joaane, Gaya, Athirah, Amalaia, Hasni, Zainuri dan lain-lain lah yang selalu tengok I buat performance akuastik penyapu kat belakang class. Teo dan Braian/Brayan miang yang selalu ajar I mathematics. Jasa anda dihargai. Haha. I love you*.

Ex Boys : Sorry kalau I tersalah apa-apa or termoody tak semena. Kita berdamai di pagi raya jee then kita gadoh balik. Eh gurau ok. Haha babi jee :\

Secret Admires : Even I tak pernah couple dengan salah satu dari you all, kita berdamai jugak. Aha lantak kau lah. Kita berdamai pagi raya jee. Tepat pukul 12 tengahari nanti, kita gaduh balik. Ha ambik kau. Haha

Abu & Ali & The geng : I love you sayang. Nanti I raya rumah you yee sayang sekalian. (xo)

Lain-lain : Maaf jugak.


*Love,Atika Allen D

14 September 2009

Its not over

I've found these in my diari/diary/etc. When I read it back, this is perfect for Abu.

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over
We had the chance to make it
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die
I wish that I could take it back
I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

Motherfish-cracker

I akan cuba untuk mengelak daripada speaking Indon yeah dalam entri yang tak seberapa ni. Insyaallah cause I nak gossips pasal bibik baru I. Bibik lama I terpaksa balik sebab dah terlebih miang nak kahwin. Jadi terpaksa digantikan dengan adik dia. Selalu dah biasa tukar-tukar bibik ni. Dari dulu memang sentiasa menggunakan khidmat Puan Haini & The Geng. Jadi rasanya takde masalah untuk kali ini.

Tapi nampaknya indah khabar dari rupa. Bibik baru ni memang agak teruk. OK first time kat Malaysia so perangainya boleh diterima. Tapi tapi agaknya dia tak boleh berfikir secara logik. Banyak masalah yang dibuatnya menimbulkan rasa untuk menyepak dia dengan high heels yang tidak diketahui jenamanya semakin membuak-buak. Pertama sekali, dia telah menggunakan ear-phone milikku tanpa segan silu. Weyy geli lah nak share taik telinga sama-sama. Kedua, tahu tak tanpa segan silu, dia cilok lagu-lagu dalam handphone I dan terus buat lagu tu jadi dia punya ringtone. Bukanlah I nak kecoh tak boleh nak cilok lagu I dalam handphone I, tapi atleast dia mintak kebenaran. Ketiga, tahu tak dia dah habiskan kredit I RM2.50!! Yang ni memang tak boleh jadi. Kalau ikutkan hati, memang high heels tu dah masuk dalam mulut dia. Huh kenapa begini? T.T

Keempat, dia tak bangun sahur. Mana boleh macam tu. It is her responsibility, Dan sebagai balasan, ambik kau bebelan dari aku (buat muka jahat). Lagi lagi dia telah mengoyakkan baju mama. Kesian mama. Dah lah baju tu favourite I tapi kalau pakai boleh jadi jubah. Haih, sekali dia makan, ambik nasi penuh satu pinggan. Tak cukup lagi dengan lauk-pauk. Lagi satu pinggan penuh. Dah tuh, minum air kosong sudah. Ni nak jugak air aku en. Agak melampau for me. Nak kena kekak ke?!

OhMyGost : Perlukan bibik baru sekarang jugak!

12 September 2009

Mari main tanglung

WARNING
Post ni banyak photo tahu? Sila buka mata dan baca.
Moshi-moshi. How are you? Oh Im fine, thankk you. Eh eh ok serious dongg*
Waduhh, penat gila hari ni. Main tanglung dengan kawan-kawan model yang dah lama tak jumpa. Last jumpa time photoshoot di Porenis, Singapore yang memang macam poyo gila en. Oh rindu gila kat you all. Cehh padahal hari-hari jumpa depan bustop Kedai Mamak. Haha poyo jee aku ni.
Seperti yg Atika Allen janjikan, post ni photo jee lebih. Sila scroll kebawah.

























































































































11 September 2009

Its here bie

Abu texted me lately. Finally, he texted me. Tapi everytime he tried to be kind to me, mesti mood I tak baik time tuu :\

Huh, I rasa penat gila hari ni. Banyak experiment kena buat tadi. Eleh padahal 2 jee dah kecoh -.-' I dont know why kenapa penat gila hari ni. Memang dari meeting BT, badan dah tunjuk reaction yang sangat macam taik. Main sosial depan AJK tadi lagi laaaah. Serupa macam apa ntah la en. Plus puasa lagi. Tak dapat cuti lagi. Haha.

Balik tunggu mama lambat gila. My school organized Majlis Buka Puasa. So terpaksa tunggu depan sekolah ditemani nenek-nenek gila. Kejap-kejap nak tangkap gambar. Aku sepak jugak en. Dah lah penat gila. Then nak suruh orang jadi model ikan keli lagi. Huh. Mama sampai lepastu kena ikut pergi bazaar. Jumpa Halida's husband and the geng. Eh kerek gila. Oh lupa nak story glory.Tadi jumpa Hisyam pundek eh salah taip. Hisyam pendek. Haha.

H: Atika! (smiling)
A: (smiling separuh bibir)
H: Heleh kerek en kau. Bukan nak senyum.
A: (smiling setengah bibir)
H: Ha, macam tu lah. Eh kenapa lipat tudung cam tu? Tak lawa laa.
A: Ye ke? (betul-betul kan tudung)

Haha, sorry lahh, aku takde mood la pundek eh pendek. Ehh makna kau selama ni aku lawa lahh? Haha ok perasan sekejap. Then, balik mcj dengan Abu sayang. Abu nama baru untuk Emirah. Lagi privacy kot kot. He asked me to 'open' puasa kat AC. Yelah AC mizal punya restaurant. Eh tipu jee, AC - Andalas Corner yang semua nama waitress nya Es tahu. Haha gedik jee Es ni en. Tapi malang, I cant go. Nak bangun tak larat, apa tah lagi nak pergi AC tu. Separuh jalan, I mati kena gilis lori kepada pakcik India yang busuk gila tu!! Hah ambik kau.

Masa nak tunggu waktu 'open' puasa, I ada buat video guna handphone mama. Tapi tak bleh upload dalam belogger. Gila betul. First time I marah kat belogger sayang ni. I nyanyi lagu FALLIN' FOR YOU. It is for Abu. HEHE.

OhMyGost: Ha, cuba kira perkataan 'gila' dalam post ni. Kalau pandai en ;p

10 September 2009

bie

Today is such a 'babi' day for me. Haha. Suck it. I hate today because I cant focus to my study. Especially history. Boringg tahap gaban punya ok. I just .. huh I dont know how to describe it. Maybe because I tak nampak dia hari ni. Tapi memang I dah taknak jumpa dia lagi. Ngeh, lain pulak jadi. And now Im waiting for him to text me. Yesterday he called me twice but I do not answered it. I am too scared to hear his voice. Then after I came back from mamak's stall, I called him but he off it. I've tried again but hell yeah it was failed. So I just let it go. When I was studying lately, I made a song for him. But just the lyrics. I will post it as soon as possible ok. Bye.

08 September 2009

E*

Ok fine, 'bertepuk sebelah tangan' T.T


Waiting for your call
I'm sick
call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to
to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished
I am new
I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious
you and me flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's your fantasy?
And I'm tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home (sigh)

07 September 2009

Love

Im not good in a love relationship. You can just ask my ex boyfriends. When Im in a love relationship, I just hope that the boy can understand my life. It is not easy to become my partner actually. They need to understand everything about me and sometimes Im quite an annoying girl. But now, I think I would like someone to be mine. Hehe I hope he is not reading this entry now.

I knew him when I was in primary school. He is one of Amily's friend. My neighbour's friend. But maybe he doesn't realizes me. And then when Im moving to secondary school, I met him. At the canteen. On that time, I wanted to buy a drink to quench my thirst. He kept looking at me and I just said "what?". Then he said "Macam kenal je". I looked at him and said "Oh yeke? So what?". Ok ok I know that was totally annoying. He replied "Ekelehh".

After a few days, I met him again for the second time. Accidentally. I just looked at him and suddenly my pet sys came. Fatherfishcrecker, he is my sys's bestfriend. Then when I checked my myspace account, he added mine as his friend. So I just approved it. The day after tomorrow, my pet sys called me and said that he wanted my phone number. I said "kalau berani, bagilah". My petsys gave my number to him.

He is such a kind boy but a bit bored. Haha. Sometimes he is really funny and makes me feel so happy. And that is the reason why I want him to be my friend. Forever if can (smiling)

Nyonya punya birthday

First of all, Happy Birthday la sangat en to Atighah, rakan sekampung ku di Fghance :') Dah tua rupanya kau ye. Ngeh ngeh. We met at AC. Eh eh bukan AC Mizal punya restaurant yeah. Hanya di Andalas Corner di Taman Rakyat di Klang di Selangor di Malaysia dan seterusnya di dunia. Ahaa, ok stop*. Nasib baik sempat lagi tengok Abu punya performance kat TV en. Walaweyh, handsome gila XD

Berbuka puasa kat sana. Best la jugak sebab semua kos Atighah belanja. Thanks yeah. And ada satu accident yang malu gila. Tak payah cerita lah. Tapi kesian kat you all, takpe I cerita jugak. Tadi I tersalah masuk toilet. Bodoh gila en. Dengan muka gojos nya I melulu ke toilet jantan. Then I ada nampak uncle ni tengah basuh tangan. Ok dengan muka gojos macam takde pape belaku, turn balik keluar. Haha. MALU GILA ok (tunduk malu, muka merah)

While waiting for Is, I called Iddin. Kawan lama. Dia tak dapat datang. Then called Emir. Ok fine dia pun tak dapat datang. Ada exam. Nevermind lahh kalau tak dpt dtg. I faham. Bytheway goodluck Emir sayang. Eh eh silap taip tadi. Bytheway goodluck Emir. Haha nanti orang salah faham en. Dah takde cerita. Scroll jee bawah, tengok gambar ok.











06 September 2009

Dont be soo gay

Look inside your tiny mind. Now look a bit harder. Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor. So you say, "It's not okay to be gay". Well I think you're just evil. You're just some racist who can't tie my laces. Your point of view is medieval. Cause we hate what you do. And we hate your whole crew. So please don't stay in touch. Cause your words don't translate. And it's getting quite late. Do you get? Do you get a little kick out of being slow minded? You want to be like your father? It's approval your after. Well that's not how you find it Do you really enjoy living a life that's so hateful? Cause there's a hole where your soul should be. Your losing control of it and it's really distasteful. You say You think we need to go to war, well you're already in one. Cause it's people like you who need to get slew. No one wants your opinion!

04 September 2009

Ditch the plastic

I've just read a magazine lately. And there are a few tips that I think I can share with you all. Just to save our planet honeyy. Read it out ok.

Bring your own bag
You know what, between 500 billion and 1 trillion plastic bags are used each year worlwide. Avoid this needless waste by always carrying a bag or two with you when you go to the shopping complex.

Drink tap water
Asia accounts for 26% of glbal bottled water consumption. Nearly all of these plastic bottles end up in ladfills. Also, is some cases, bottled water isn't even as safe as tap water.

Buy from bulk bins
This is great way to avoid buying food in plastic packaging. Supermarkets like Giant, Tesco and etc offer dried fruit, nuts, candy and spices available in bulk that you can bring home in reusable bags. My mom uses this way sometimes. Your mom can join us too (smiling)

Discover fresh foods
Almost all processed foods are wrapped in plastic. buy fresh fruits and veggies (use your own bags) and find a deli where you can have your meet and cheese wrapped in paper.

Hold the straw
You dont really need a straw to drink juice, do you? There;s nothing wrong with telling the waiter or waitress or the mamak at a restaurant by "no straw, please!" and sipping straight from the glass. Tak jatuh pun korang punya takhta kecantikan or kehandsome-an.

Enjoy 'slow' food
It's practically impossible to avoid plastic packaging when eating at McDonald's. Slow down on the fast food and cook your own meals. If you're new to cooking, ask your mom to cook for you. Then, name your mom's food with MomDonald's. Haha.



IMPORTANT, DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP

In this day and age, it is next to impossible to be completely plastic-free: remember, even your pc are made of plastic. The truth is, because plastic is cheap and convenient, it is EVERYWHERE and in ANYTHING. So dont feel bad if you can't totally avoid it, and dont give up. Just do the best you can. Same as me too ok.

03 September 2009

harian

Ok tak kalau guna 'trebuchet' ni? Sekali sekala tukar mood kan. Huh, kebosanan melanda diriku. Tapi takpe, asalkan dapat cuti hari ni. Kalau kat sekolah sekarang, mesti tengah belajar Agama Islam. Tapi kalau Athirah, dia tak masuk class Agama Islam, dia masuk kelas Tamil. Haha ambik kau. Balasan taknak duduk sebelah aku time dalam tuition semalam. Even aku datang tuition hanya 1 hour+, kau harus menerima balasan. Dah lah datang lambat. Ok stop membebel sekarang*

Eh betul la orang cakap bulan ramadhan ni, doa akan termakbul. Haa, dah banyak lah jugak doa I termakbul. Contoh nya (ehh, nak jugak bagi contoh an) , semalam I ada doa hope teacher tak datang sebab pergi holiday Haiwaii. And tadaaa, betul-betul teacher tak datang. Tapi tak tahu pulak kalau teacher pergi Haiwaii ke tak. Hehe doa apa kebenda ntah. Tapi buat penat jee hafal skrip apakebenda tu. Dahlah I sorang jee yang paling bising buat suara berubah-ubah mengikut skrip. Takpe, tengah saiko semalam.

Haih apalah gossip terbaru kat sekolah kan. Kawan-kawan class 1Aghif sihat tak? Harap you all sihat-sihat sahaja yeah. Eh baru sehari dah rindu kat you all. Cehh padahal aman gila tak tengok muka you all harini. Memekak tak sudah-sudah. Puan Marry dah bagi nasihat pun tak ambik peludi. Kesian Puan Marry kan. Takpe, nanti kitorang beli biskut Marry banyak-banyak sebagai tanda maaf. Haha gurauan ok. Puan Marry jangan marah. Tak baik. Kurang pahala puasa.

Dah lah bye. Daripada I terus membebel tanpa motif sebenar, baik blah. Ngee.

02 September 2009

doktor said

Motherfish cracker, semalam kat sekolah, I cirit-birit. Dah lah puasa plus I tak sahur and then kena pulak cirit-birit. Luckily, tandas sekolah wangii semalam. Makcik indon, terimas yeah. Nanti suruh kepala sekolah (pengetua) bayar kamu lebih sikit ok. Pagi-pagi lagi dah sampai my 2nd home sweet home. Zet's house - my sister's house. Zet garang macam apa ntah. Haha ok tipu jee. Sampai and then cakap-cakap. Tapi akhirnya tertidur tapi tak tahu bile I sleeping beauty -.-"

Bangun pukul 10.30 a.m. Kena pergi meeting BSM pukul 11.00 a.m. Means both of us dah lambat. Nasib baik I torsodar. Kalau tak, garenti tak attend meeting. Zet, cakap terima kasih kat aku sekarang! Haha. Eleh poyo jee kata terlambat, tapi tak lambat pun. Tak tahu lah, both of us cepat pulak siap. You know what, masa semalam macam slow gila bebeng.

Dalam class, I dok busy hafal skrip "How Dalat got its name". Dah lah I kena jadi the villagers. Banyak tu. Kena tukar-tukar suara. Mula-mula practise macam mana nak buat suara-suara garau and suara kecil-kecil. I buat sorang diri bertemankan Mali disebelah. Then, I ask Joanne to listen. Joanne kata "Atika, you're good actress". Haha well biasalah* (perasan). Lepas tu, I practise sorang-sorang balik. Aqil tengok jee. Apahal ntah. Then, I hafal skrip depan Athirah Roslee. Ngehh. Last-last teacher tak datang. Oh great!

I pergi tuition, then sakit perut lagi. So, I pergi ladies. I masuk balik dalam class, then rasa tulang belakang I sakit. Nak smile pun tak larat. Apa lagi nak bergelak tawa dengan Prem and the geng. Teacher ajar semua I tak dapat focus. Then, I cakap kat teacher yang I nak blah. Tak larat nak study lagii. Huh, lepas tu pergi clinic. Doctor tanya mcam-macam, I just "angguk" and "geleng". Tak larat nak cakap.

Last-last, doctor said "Atika, you kena food poisoning". I angguk. Then whisper, "bye doctor" Haha. Hari ni ponteng la dodol.