Loser will always be a loser

Harlo everyone,

So yeah I decided to delete my previous entry because I look too desperate. Thanks to Alia Ghazali, my bestfriend, actually. Alright alright.

Lol my ex, Emir, added me back in BBM a few weeks ago. At first, I had no idea that was him. I thought a friend of mine or something, but then after checking  my recent update, my heart literally stopped. I can't even walked...

Dup dap dup dap. 

After that, I went back home and took my super-long nap. Trying to keep calm and forget about him. I woke up around 7 or 8 something, and I received his bbm..

"Eh ni Atikah?"

Motherf- kau tak payah nak tanya lagi lah sial. And I replied

"Ye, tak payah buat-buat tanya"

He replied and asked me to forgive him bla bla. And he even said "I nak pergi merantau"

Hahahaha seriously bro? Ok cool story bro cool story. Oh come on, merantau? My ass. 

He asked me to forgive him? Seriously? Ok ini pendapat aku lah kan.

I will never forgive him. Never. I know this may sound mean or evil or whatever but I just can't. He can't simply ruined someone's life and just left and come back a year later for a forgiveness. That's a real bullshit. Kemarahan memuncak when Asyikin trying to influence me so that I will forgive him. Babe, you weren't there with me. Kau cakap senang. "Maafkan je lah dia. Semua orang buat kesilapan doh" hekeleh aku pun boleh cakap macam tu ok. Cakap senang lah weh. Hati aku ni hancur siapa je tahu? Grow up lah.

I'm sorry. But I hope his life will be miserable. Nay.

Grateful Wednesday

So uhm yeah.. hi. Since I'm back to single, I'm gonna post all my daily activities here in this belog. Sedih nya bila every night kena cakap sorang-sorang recall balik. Sigh

Teheee! I woke up at 6 today. I think it's amazing because I had never wake up this early. Haha. Started my day with a really great cold shower. And had Quacker Oat for breakfast. Quacker Oat is so..euw. But I have to, because I'm desperately need calcium for my body since I'm not a big fan of milk. Took 2 pills of vitamin supplement for my energy..and to be honest, none of the pills gave me that 'energy' that I needed.. Something is really wrong with my body :p

School was fun. Mani and Ivan fought in the class. Mani punched Ivan's balls....... Hahahah wait, it ain't funny. Oh and I got a 'purdah' from Ena! Ya allah, I'm the happiest girl in the world ok, I swear. After school, Ma and I went to Giant because uhm she wanted to buy something for baking. 

Look at my pale face.. Whatever. I don't know why but I feel really grateful today. Alhamdulilah for everything. Yes, I might feel lonely on a lonely night like this but ya know, I feel so relieved and happy at the same time! Gonna give myself a few years to start learning on how to love myself just like I did when I was a kid. Yes, I can do this! Uuu yeah, man. You go, girl *talks to ze mirror*

Aaaaaaand hehehehe ..

Hi Azriel Dany! Welcome to this world. Kak Tika will love you, forever and always! Just be careful. This world is full with fake people with a friendly face. But  you don't have to worry, because I will guide you. I promise. I can't wait to kiss and hug you!!!!!! Omg I think I'm gonna cry right now. Oh, forever a dramatik girl.

Barlo!

Late night talks where you confess everything.. 

Yes,   I miss that. I really miss that.