What I used to be?

Harloooo,

*sigh*

One of my friends asked me,

"Qaqa, kau diet eh?"

And i was like,

"Tak pernah. Taknak"

Then she said,

"Aku teringin nak body mcm kau. Lawa ah. Best ah jadi kau"

Woooooooooooooo, biar i re-type balik ye, letak bold sikit

"Best ah jadi kau"

Hahaha. She doesn't know how broken am i right now and she can said that she wanna be 'me' -.- I just gave a fake smile when she said that.

Dear girls,

I know someone is prettier or maybe more perfect than you, but always remember that you're always pretty. Every girl is pretty. Whoever that doesn't notice about it, don't give a damn at all. You know who you are. Take a good care of yourself. Always know what's perfect and best for you. Appreciate your body. If you're not satisfied with your body, chill and just do what you have to do for your body as long as you are cormfortable with it. I don't understand at all, why some of my friends say that they hate their body but when i ask them to do exercise, they will say that they are lazy to do it. Are you fucking kidding me?! wth -___-' haha

Plus, tak payah lah cakap nak jadi mcm orang tu, orang ni, orang situ, orang sana. Kau tak tahu apa the real story pasal life diorang, diam *muka serious

OhMyGhost: Haha, I like to make evil face nowadays -.- WHY huh?! Why?! K fine barlo! :-*

Harlo,

Today is Earth Hour :DD Memandangkan I'm one of UMW participants, I will support this programme. And i hope all of you will support this programme to save our Earth :') Please, you just have to switch off your light and your electricity just for an hour. Just leave that Facebook, Tumblr for 60 mins. Sekejap je kot takkan mati punya.

So for today, i had a new haircut. My face looks old lah kalau rambut panjang. Tak percaya eh, see hah my photo dekat Genting. Gila, macam orang sakit dah. My cousin selalu ingat i sakit otw nak mati -.- He will always asked me,
  "Tika, why hah muka kau macam tak cukup darah? Dah nak mati ke? Okay mati lah awal sikit"

kuanghajak doh T.T

Kelakar kan?!!!! Okay ni tak nampak sangat effect muka sakit. I got another photo hihi

Fine yang ni serious macam muka orang sakit -.-

Haha. Very short actually. Okay barlo

Cheating on a Test in High School

Harlo

Haha you have to check out this video :DD

I have to share this :'(

Harlo

Okay kita pilih gambar paling blur ABCDEFGHIJK sial mana entah gambar yang dekat Genting :'(

Hurm. When you lose someone, someone you love and when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go through and no matter how much time had passed, it never really goes away. You may think you're getting better, but then you get a flashback, or hear a song (i love you 5 T.T) that reminds you of a memory and it hits you all over again, all at once, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart, for the 12345678 .. okay let's make it simple, for the hundredth time. And you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. I don't know why I choose a rock but i imagine the mitos of 'Batu Belah' LOL -.-

You love this person with all of your hart, even though you know you shouldn't. They hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt. They stole your happiness but yet you still want them, and only them. other people come along and give you chances to move on, but you know you don't want to. It upsets you that you might be moving on but you promised you never would. And even if they broke all your promises, you want to keep yours.

On top of that, you're terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again but it's not like it matters anyway. At the end of the day, you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken. You don't want to miss them anymore. You don't want to love them anymore but you know you always will.

And just to let you know, if you ever saw me laughing or smiling, it's fake. I feel so relieved cause finally i can share these shits with hurm at least to those people who can understand me :') I'm fucking broken xx

Check this out yo!

Harlo



Omghost, i thought i was the only one who did video like that. I'm pretty sure that you guys had heard "Rocket" by Yuna. It WAS my favourite song! You know what, I like that song cause whatever words that I fit into the lyrics, it still sounds so great :')

Haha I did exactly like her before this. But I used hurm Abang Fazli's hp kot. Ambik guitar, main ikut suka hati jer. Tukar-tukar ayat sikit. I remember a few words :

"Oh Emir, why you don't notice me

I admire you so much

Every date we had to cancel it off

Macam kita takde jodoh"

Ya Allah, betapa retarded nya aku time dulu-dulu T.T okay time tu tengah syok dekat my ex haha bodoh lame gila kot. 'Shuwiiit' tak i ni?????? Haha. Okay okay i try cari balik video tuu and I will post it ^^

Barlo!

Harlo,

I'm in Kedah now. I don't know what to do because my cousins are not here. I miss them especially Saifun. Oh my, he is the only cousin who can understands me. Both of us are crazy. Haha. We had done many crazy things together. He even taught me how to smoke when I was 11 haha. Gila.

Oh my ghost, my eye bags -.- Itu pun dah cover sikit guna make-up. Hurm. I think I'm going to deactivate my fb account. Oh and my uncle called me last night, and he asked me if I want to stay in Singapore after PMR with Aina. Or maybe after Aina finish her exams. I don't know yet. Insyallah. At least I can stay away from those shits if I go there. Maybe I will bring along one or two of my girlfriends. I already asked Nana before this -.- I really hope my girlfriends can join me to go there. Tapi lambat lagi pun en haha.

Barlo!

http://atikahjaafar.tumblr.com/

Yo baby, i'm moving on! See, everyone is proud of me :') Thankio k.

Barlo

Harlo

I'm back. Nothing changed. Hurm. My latest weight is 45 kg :B and my aunty said maybe i was too depressed about the break-up things. Haha, yeah i have to admit it. My life had changed a lot.

Sometimes i feel like i really want to pay back what he'd done to me. Hmm for example, just ignore him but i can't do that :| i'm not close with anyone anymore. I'm afraid if my bestfriends already bored with my shits.

Have you ever loved somebody and when they're gone, you wish you could give them everything so that they will come back to you? I hope that i'm not the only one who is going through this :\ 



This song inspired me a lot! He's so fcking hot. Seriously hot :B haha

OhMyGhost : I got 73% for my english. I'm so sorry if i'm using broken english in this belog :'(

BARLO!

Nurina, you should say that to him. Even Nurina noticed about it. Why you can't notice about it? :'(

Harlo

Fuck. I wanna see you. And hug you. And make you smile. And make you laugh. And just lie on the sofa next to you. And then just fall asleep beside you. It'd be nice.

That's all kbye :|

Harlo

I'm broken again. Hmm, so tadi dia bagi tahu apa yang i nak dengar selama ni-which is great :')
But i don't know, i menangis. And after end the call, i masuk bilik macam dah nak mati. Cried as loud as i can, tengok dah pukul 3 and i was like "What the fuck", buat muka terkejut O.O lepastu cried again. Dramatik kan ? LOL.

Thanks for your love. But you ada cakap you boring dengar semua tu kan? OHOKAY. Hurm. I'm so sorry. Yeah, jauh lagi semua ni. Dah faham dah. You orang ke berapa entah cakap benda yang sama.

I'm tired. My brain is tired. My body is tired. My mind is tired. My heart is tired. I need you and I don't understand why you don't get it. I miss you k. If you need my hug, you can just come to me and hug me. Of course I will give you a hug. Plus, I miss your hug too.

I'm gonna wait for you. Come back to me k. Bye i love you.