25 August 2011

The same shits again.

I'm so sorry for telling the same shits all over again. But please understand me. I'm weak. I used to be a very strong girl, who always live my life to the fullest but now everything had changed. I can't do anything but hoping everything will be fix soon.

xo

Harlo

Assalamualaikum, kalau tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab sayang


That's me without any makeup. I hate makeup. I feel very cormfortable without any makeup on my face. But I know, without makeup my face looks ugly. Well, i'm forever insecure. So, if I went out with him, I will put my makeup to cover my eyes boggy. I want him to always look me as a beautiful girl. I mean, his beautiful ex. I know I'm not as pretty as his girl friends. Dia tak pernah puji aku cantik pun. Sebab dia kata aku tak cantik.

But when I knew there is one girl who has a crush on him, I feel threatened. I guess, any girls will feel the same way too. What if he likes that girl too? What if he meet other girl who 10 times more beautiful than me? What if he is in love with other girl right now? What if .. What if ..

Ah a word of 'ifs' .. People said what was done, was done. If I could go back in time but I couldn't. The past was behind me. I know that the best thing now would be stop looking over my shoulder. It is time to forget the past, and look to the present and future. But I just couldn't do that. It's hard k.

It has been 8 months now, but my rountine is still same. I will cry whenever I feel lonely. I need - that - person who used to cheer me up everytime I was about to cry and break down. That - person who always makes me feel  that I'm the luckiest girl in this whole world to have a wonderful boyfriend. And to be honest, I'm crying right now. I know I'm such a dramatic person but ....

*sigh* What if he lied to me? What if he will never come back to me again? Well my boy, can you answer all those 'ifs' ? How I wish you will call me and explain everything to me. Don't fall in love with somebody else, please? Hold your promises, please?




As you requested, nah this is your song. Barlo people.

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