07 June 2012

The best advice from me


 

What else can I say? I love all my fav people so much, but sometimes, people change. Feelings fade and all you need to do is, move on. People will always leave. Dengan kerelaan ataupun tak. That's why we have to appreciate every single thing in life. Remember, forever doesn't exist. This is reality. We live in reality. No, we're not Snow White. We're not Cinderella. Prince charming is a bullshit. 

We have to learn to let go. It's the hardest thing to do, I know. But, you have to. Believe in yourself. Believe in Allah. He knows the best. You might think that life's unfair or whatsoever, of course, it is, but sometimes those pain will make you stronger. Stronger than ever, I tell you. Be heartless. You need to be heartless. You were not born to please people. Think.

Don't be too positive. You need to balance your positive and negative sides. Positivity will lead you to high expections and trust me, it will destroy yourself. I have a very bad trust issue. So, I do not trust people easily. But when I do, I really do. I do not quickly forgive those who has pissed me off. That's the best side of me...for me lah en.

Be careful to who you give your heart to. Because when you give your heart to someone, you also give them the power to hurt you. Oh, "pretty is a pretty diz" - always keep these words in your head. It means, doesn't matter what you look like, it matters what you do. You just have to be nice. Act nice. Treat people good. And you will feel the love. No regrets, just love. Remember, love doesn't hurt, loving the wrong person does. 

Love yourself. Love your body. If you want to be skinny, do something so that you can be skinny. If you want to be smart, do something so that you can be smart. Nothing is impossible. Life's hard. Yes, I'm sixteen, but I can feel that I'm stronger than everyone. And I'm proud of myself. 

Hahahahah, omg I'm such a wise girl. Lol barlo x

04 June 2012

Call me crazy, don’t believe me, do whatever you want, but I have this thing, where I can remember every dream I have every morning. Most of my dreams are about Azrin. Weird huh? 

Yesterday...my dream started with the place he proposed me, Starbucks Sunway. I was chatting with my girls and he was there too. He ordered "something" that he once ordered for me on our first date with Alia. We stared at each other and then I walked away. 

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Baaam, I woke up. And continue my sleep..

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I was at my house, checking my facebook account. I don't know why but I can feel my heart was breaking when I checked his page. "Azrin is in a relationship with _____" I couldnt  remember her name but I knew it was a dream. I tried to come back to reality but failed. I fell down and cried the hell out of my lungs. Azrin came to me, like, he was trying to pull me put from the dream. But I could not move my hands. My hands, they were shaking. He smiled, and went off with his new girl. I cried, and cried and cried and baaaaaaaaaam, I woke up again. And I could feel the tears on my face. I cried in real life too! "Ya allah. This is scary.", I said to myself. I tried to stand up but.....hm. I checked my phone, and got 6 notifications from whatsapp. One of em was from HIM!!

"Hello? I miss you.." 

Awww I miss you too x