Good Bye 2011

"Tunggu I sampai I habis SPM"

"I rasa I suka dekat you balik"

"Please, move on. I dah ada new life I"

"Atikah Jaafar, congrats. 8As!"

As much as I hate 2011, but I swear that I'm gonna miss this year. 2011 taught me to be positive, confident and have faith in life. 2011 is the roughest year ever in my 15 years life. But still, I met a lot of awesome people who loves me just the way I am. And I feel very grateful for that. 

My 2011 started with a bullshit. 1/1/2011, my ex left me hanging just like that. He asked me to wait for him. I waited for him. While waiting for him, I kept myself busy just to forget about my pain. Studies, friends, Tumblr, Blogging and Twitter helped me a lot in this situation. I cried myself to sleep. Cried, cried, cried and cried like there's no tomorrow. I hate waiting. I thought he was worth to wait. But I was wrong. He is not worth it. At all.

I studied hard for my PMR. I wanna be a doctor, and I know PMR is the beginning of my dream. I wanna go away from Andalas. Far away from Andalas. And yes, I got 8As for that. Alhamdulilah. 

After PMR, I spent my time with my girls. And I met my boyfriend. I met Adi. They are way better than my ex. I feel stupid. I feel stupid for waiting for him. Nehhhh, what-a-great-lesson huh. 

And now, 30/12/2011, as I'm writing this post, I'm smiling. Smiling, smiling, smiling and smiling. Everything seems possible right now. Thanks 2011. I really do hope that 2012 will be much more awesome. I can't wait for my birthday and Foster The People. 

Barlo

Extreme is fun.

Harlo

longboarding. from syaza nadhirah on Vimeo.

I'm skyping with Didi right now. Hehe and ummm mood for blogging tiba-tiba membuak. So yeay here is me right now! Okay fine whutever. 

Back to my main story~ I came to Nana's house this evening. We had a lot of fun at there with her lil bro. And mark my words, street surfing is fun! Really fun. I'm still trying to balance my body hewhew. But it's really tough. Banyak kali jatuh but heyy "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih" :p 

Okay that's all for now. Barlo~

Alhamdulilah

Harlo

One of my 2011 had finally came true. Yes, I got 8A's in my PMR!

When I remember back, I can proudly say that I really deserve this. Like seriously, I can't believe I can go through all those shits and tadaaaa I regret nothing. Those shits make me stronger. Those shits make me realize that whatever it is, study is more important. 

Thanks for those who always support me and help me.  I love you. And I always do.  Barlo

This is for the haters

Lol okay, I don't even have a hater. Everyone loves me :p But this song is really cool and amazing. And you know whuttt, he is a Malaysian. You proud, man? Oh come on, be proud. 

Barlo

I'm running out of time

Please take this as a serious issue, Athirah Roslee. Please. 

Happy 1 month!

Harlo

You know what? Being in a relationship is scary. There are many aspects to it. It takes trust, patience and understanding. It takes time. Sometimes, it comes with doubts. Am I good enough? Why I am so boring? Is he bored? Does he feel the same way? All these thoughts. It makes you harder. It makes you change things up. The thought of him not feeling the same. The thought of you feeling more for him than he do for you. It's scary. The thoughts of "it's going to be like the last time"  or the fear of losing them after coming so far. Just the fact at anytime, they can walk out for your life.  It's a pessimistic thought. But it's really true. That's why we all have to fight for love. We all have to break barriers and tear down walls for love. We change, lifestyle changes. Things we go through to keep what we have strong. It's all worth it, if you make it worth it.

Thanks for this 1 month, my love. I had a really good times with you that I could never forget. Even it looks like nothing, but it's something for me. Something that is worth to remember when you walk away from my life, one fine day. 

Barlo

Alia Ghazali

Harlo

This post is special for Alia Ghazali or so called Alia Gaga. Eh? 

Dear Alia,

Hai, I'm Atikah Jaafar, your gorgeous girl. Don't ever change. You are who you are. I know this sounds nothing, but please appreciate people around you. They will never be with you forever. Appreciate them as long as they are with you. The first time I knew you, I hate you. You, and your attitude. But days by days, I started to know who you are. The real of you.

A girl with boys' problems but I know you're trying to find your true love. Well you know what sweetheart, you don't have to. Your true love will come at the right time with a right reason and the right person. And I can feel that Hazmi is one of your maybe-true-love. But don't hope too much and please don't expect too much. You should just go with the flow of your relationship. Put your ego aside and be happy. Just be happy. If it's meant to be, then it will be.

Thanks for always be there for me. I don't know what else to say about you. Emm good luck with your new love-life. I love you. And I always do *hugs* Please cry after you read this :P Lol okay barlo!

Eh wait, you wanna know what is the real happiness? 

Now, that is the real happiness :') Ahaks. I hope by posting this, you will try to 'pujuk' Hazmi to bring us to Genting xD Please baby, please? lol

Oh pfffft, come on. Of course, I'm gonna be your girl :P Omg he is so hot. Can die ah liddis. 

Waloweh, insecure gila tengok Miranda Kerr ni. Haish this hot bish.. :3 Okayy off to bed. 


Barlo, everyone.

Harlo


So yeah I went to Aeon with Alia yesterday. It was quite fun. I met her new boyfriend, Hazmi aka Aliff Imran. Ahaks. His face looks EXACTLY like Aliff. Sumpah, tak tipu. And I met *drummm sounds* ...... my boy! Hehe, Alia and I forced him to follow us cause hell yeah I'm not going to watch Breaking Dawn alone -_- Don't you dare to ask me to watch that kind of movie alone k. 


We had our lunch at PastaMania. Lepak kat situ almost an hour. As usual, aku makan memang kalah kura-kura hihi. Alia and Hazmi suggested me to eat Lasagne so yeah I ordered it as my lunch. And last-last tak sampai setengah pun makan. Gelak, borak-borak je. After lunch, hehehehehe movie time baby! Like seriously, focus gila kot tengok Breaking Dawn. And my boy keeps asking me, "Eh you okay ke tak ni?" "Apahal you diam?" "Weyh okay tak ni?" "Jangan lah diam" -_- Oh come on my love, I'm trying to focus at Jacob! Shut the hell up.


After watching movie, went to Mcd for our second lunch. And here come to my favourite part of the day! I was eating Double Cheese Burger and oh my god I swear to god, ada bulu dekat cheese tu. Something like bulu ketiak O.o While Alia tak habis-habis dengan Air Coke yang ada darah HIV. Ya Allah, serious sakai.


Then, hantar my love balik. Hehe *muka gatal* lol. I held his hand and urgghhh I wanna hug him cause I miss him so much. But I just stay calm and watlek watcool watpeace whatever. Lepastu ehehehe *another muka gatal*, we met Taylor Lautner Andalas aka Hamqa. Lol k whatever. We went to Popular cause Mama asked me to find Ombak Rindu. Like seriously Ma, buku dah berzaman. Dah boleh tengok movie dah pun. And we accompanied him for his lunch. Had a really good time with him. Ahaks, he is funny. A very funny boy. 


Him : *trying to suap a hotdog for me*


Me  : Apa sial?!


Him : Nah lah.


Me  : Bodoh, dah lah hotdog


Hahahaha k if only you can understand what I mean :P Around 6, we went back to Mcd. Waiting for Hazmi's friend yang aku pun tak tahu macam mana dia kenal aku. Bla bla balik. Sampai je rumah, Mama cakap nak keluar KL. Say whuttt? I can't even walk anymore. Fell asleep around 11 something, and received a call from my love. Hehe. He is so sweet :')


I'm so happy with my life now. Kbarlo, everyone! Sorry for my Manglish xD

Harlo


Nothing interesting for today. Ahaks, well it's supposed to be for EVERYday. I don't know what is wrong with me and Zarin but both of us keeps using 'ahaks' words -_- It's like, our own gelak gedik. Ahaks! 


Hmmm I watched a movie just now. And I cried. Duuhhh, I should stop being so emotional. Ahaks. So yeah tomorrow I have a test from MRSM. Test ni macam untuk tengok either kita qualified masuk MRSM ke tak. Well oh well as usual I'm too lazy to revise Maths and Science. Besides MRSM, I ada buat permohonan for SBP too. Tengku Kursiah sounds interesting.... Ahaks! Dapat jumpa Zet nanti :3 


Emmm that's all for now, I guess. Lol macam orang femes pulak nak taip macam tu. Ahaks! Whatever, barlo xx


Wish me luck ;)

Unlimited cash, please?

Harlo

I woke up at 2 today. I can't sleep last night after watching PA2. Gila teringat dekat Toby dalam PA3....Lepastu Bloody Mary...Lepastu pocong...Lepastu muka Athirah...Lepastu rambut Halida..  

You know what?! I need money. Kechaing Kechaing $.$ I need money to buy a ticket of FTP for myself. It's like a birthday present for myself. Sebab nak mintak Abah and Mama hadiah lain, ahaks *gelak gatal*

Look, I have 50 bucks there. But too bad, itu duit kerajaan yang perlu digunakan untuk membelikan peralatan sekolah, baju sekolah dan buku sekolah. Lagi 50 sudah berjaya dirembat oleh Kak Mia. Datang kutip hutang yall haritu *lap air mata*

Hanya 2.20 sen sahaja *lap air mata lagi*

Kau tahu apa keburukan menangis? Just look at my left eye. Yep. 

Ya Allah! Halida just mentioned me in Twitter, "Eh aku rasa fanatic zone dah habis sebab aku tengok dekat ticket pro". The fuck......................... Mengapakah ketentuan seringkali begini?! Ya Allah, tolong lah hambamu ini~ *ambik pisau tikam Panda Bear*

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Salam Maal Hijrah

Assalamualaikum,

What-a-boring Saturday. Start my day with his voice. Lol yeah, comel as always. Kemas rumah lepastu layan Hindustan. Habis je Hindustan, terus tidur sampai pukul 7. Still sleepy gila okay?! Took my bath and tiba-tiba teringat dekat Fikri yang nak Cake Rainbow. Tiba-tiba teringat dekat Kak Mia's birthday. Rasa macam ada janji something dekat dia tapi tak ingat... Yang I ingat, dia cakap nak join birthday kat FTP. Hmmm. Tiba-tiba teringat next week kena teman Alia Ghazali dating dengan her new boyfriend. 

Seriously kalau dalam toilet, tengah mandi, macam-macam benda terfikir. Lol me :| So yeah whatever, I'm off to sleep. My body feels so weak right now. My mom just can't stop yelling and shouting. Rimas k. Barlo people. 

A post for Fikri

Harlo Fikri,


Nah for Rainbow Cake :


500g butter, 


500g caster sugar,


10 eggs (aku rasa kau tak perlu any eggs for cheese cake)


500g self raising flour


First of all, kau preheat oven 160c, then kau just mix everything. Kalau nak buat icing, make sure vanilla essence banyak. Nanti bau telur macam cake kitorang kuat. Good luck! Bagi aku sikit okay :3


Barlo

Nurina, can I have this kind of photo with him? :')

Harlo

I'm pretty excited about 2012. I don't know why but I can feel that many great things will happen in 2012. Oh yeah besides FTP, Coldplay is coming to Malaysia too! 

Maybe too much of shits in 2011? Yeah, I guess so.. Whatever it is, I'm just trying to say that I miss 2010. A lot, okay? 2010 was too awesome for me. Many great things with great people came into my life. Everything was making sense in 2010. Everything was perfect.

And I want that to happen in 2012. I want 2012 to give my old life back. Insyaallah. Barlo xx

asdfghjkl this is a quick post

FOSTER THE PEOPLE'S CONCERT WILL BE ON 13TH JANUARY 2012.

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IT'S ON MY BIRTHDAY ASDFGHJKL ASDFGHJKL ASDFGHJKL I CAN'T WAIT! *excited face* *tunjuk braces* *kenyit mata kanan* *tunjuk thumbs up* *mucungkan mulut*

URGH I'M SO EXCITED CAN DIE!

Harlo


It's 0054 and I'm having my hot Milo right now. Heaven~ haha. 


So yeah I was watching tv with Abah when one of his ex-s called me. Both of us had a great conversation with each other. I feel pity for her. And I feel like killing him right now.


Dear Emir,


I know you may not read this, but yeah who knows..


Giving girls a hope doesn't make you look cool or what-so-ever. You are such a dick. You used SPM as your reason to leave? Wow such a great bullshit you got there. Oh come on, dude. You're 17 not 7. Use your brain. 


I don't know what to say. I thought you are the one for me but now I realize how stupid I am to even think that way. I'd enough with this kind of shit. You and your pathetic life can get the fuck out from my life. You make up story about me to your girl. That shows how immature you are. I called and texted you? Nehh, tak ingin weh tak ingin. I don't have time to text nor to call you. You told your girl that I'm desperate for you? HAHAHAHA yes, I was. But for now, in your face, dude. 


One thing you should now my 'friend', yes, of course you will find better girl than me, but remember, the girl will never be me because I'm stronger than a man. 


"Don't make a woman or a girl cry. Allah counts her tears" 


I'm sorry for cursing too much. Barlo.

Harlo

*Hehehe sorry, I'm just too lazy to move my lazy ass. I mean, my printer is way too far from my room* Well I hope it's clear. That is me with my late Grandpa, Tok Di. He passed away because of cancer. And hell yeah baby, I miss him so much right now. 

The reason why I make this post is because I was so emotional when I knew that Anis Anissa had just passed away. Actually I don't even know who is Anis Anissa but when I read her tweets, I cried so hard. That was really sad. Who knows, after I post this entry, Allah takes my breath away. Who knows?! 

I would like to fake my death and see who will react with my death. Will my parents cry for me? Will my friends come to visit me? Will he regret for letting me go? Will my girls give me a last kiss before Imaam pray for me? I bet, no ones will. At this moment, I just feel like no one loves me. No one appreciates me! 

'Kun Faya Kun' . Have you ever heard these three words? Yes, I believe in those three words. 

Semoga Tok Di and Anis tenang di sana. Al-Fatihah.

Barlo

New life is hard

"Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way"


I know this is weird but I have to admit that I'm still stuck. But hell yeah, I got a new boy right now. Yes, he makes me laugh. He makes me happy. Eventhough honestly, I'm forcing myself to love him right now. He asked me to be his girl for about 4 times before this. I can't say 'No' anymore. I have to give myself a chance to be happy because I know, I believe in him. I believe that he can make me happy when everyone else can't, just the way Hardcore always did. 


It's actually kinda hard to have someone new in my life. I have to introduce him to my life one by one. From myself to my family and my friends. I think it's very important for him to know how I deal with my life. I knew him since I was in a relationship with Aliff but we were not really that closed ya know. And yeah I want him to know how I deal with my family. I mean, I have a really beautiful family. I want him to get along with my girls. And know that my girls are my everything. He has to understand that. No matter what, my girls are more important than him.


It has been about a week since both of us in this relationship. I know this is selfish but I want him to know everything about who the real me first before I know about himself. I'm kinda paranoid to be in a relationship. I'm scared of getting hurt. I'm scared of hoping too much. But yeah as Nana's said, we have to think positive. Who knows, maybe he is serious and sincere to be with me? But afterall, I want him to know about my past. So that he will always remind himself not to hurt me just the way Hardcore did.


The best part is kitorang pernah couple in only 24 hours and break. I was not very sure about my feelings on that time. At first, he was not okay about it. He was shocked and he apologized to me because he failed of making me happy. Then, a few hours after that, he bbm-ed me and asked me to be his girl back. He wants to be serious with me. He wants to make me happy. I still remember, he said "I taknak tengok you menangis. Buat apa I nak you menangis? I nak you happy". The moment I heard it, my walls fell down one by one. This is it. I have to forget the past. And yeah, I accept him with all my heart. I guess, he is lucky. Very lucky. Lol


I hope everything will be fine between us. I know this relationship won't last forever, but I want him  to atleast have a relationship that he will never forget. I will make him happy. I will support him. But trust me, this is nothing for me. I know this relationship is no-where. 


To Tajul Imran, congratulations! Happy Birthday.

Foster The People is coming to Malaysia! :') 

Barlo

Harlo


Athirah just went back from Genting! Tak sebenarnya dah lama tapi baru dapat gambar. I'm so jelly okay. Like seriously. And she captured all the memorable places. Thanks Athirah, love you :')

This is Wishing Well. I've tried it before. I rolled my 50 cents and BAAAAAAM! My wish came true. For six months je. Haih life~ 

Yang ni, dekat depan Rock Climbing punya tempat. We can see the indoor roller-coaster from here. Tempat ni asdhjkl tempat bersejarah. I met Abang Blue at here. Abang Blue kena marah dengan Frodo dekat sini. Amalia menghabiskan sisa kenangan dekat sini. And Francisco peluk I dekat sini. Eh? Lol whutt? 

Oh yeah last 11/11/11, Athirah went out with his crush. So sweet, I can die.

Bestpren Poreber!

Harlo

I love her. Eh tak, tipu je. Tak sayang langsung. Hope mati cepat bersama Alan kau tu. 

Barlo

"I'm not weird, I'm just limited edition"

Cousin : 

"So you are more to yourself eh?"

Me        :

"Sort of.."

Cousin :

"Why eh?"

Me         :

"Umm to be honest, I don't like this school. I don't like all these people in this school. Orang cakap I sombong. Nehh"

Cousin :

"I like that. Sombong is nice actually."

Har har actually this conversation has nothing to do with this entry. I'm sorry.

It's 2:41 and my eyes are still wide open. I'm actually having insomnia... No, I was joking. I woke up late this morning so yeah of course I can't sleep right now. Hmm I wonder why most of strangers always said that I'm weird. Weird or sombong? Perbezaan yang melampau disitu ye. Please take note.

Yeah, to be honest, I'm weird. You can ask my ex. I don't know where is my ex now. He is going to sit for his SPM next week and I hope he can't can do it. Lol I don't really give a damn about him anymore. Let him be happy with his life. And his new girlfriend. Or girlfriendS. Note the difference please.

But still, you can ask him if you want to know how weird I am. I always asked him to buy weird things. Ikut kewangan dia, kalau dia tengah kaya, dapat lah barang tu. Kalau dia tengah miskin, haaaa memang tak lah. Tapi mostly I didn't get pun those things. The weird-est thing I'd asked him to buy was, a giraffe. No-no, it's not a real giraffe but haih I don't how to explain that thing. But sadly, I didn't get it. And I couldn't find it by myself.

I love weird things and I love to talk about weird stuffs. But I don't how to explain those weirdness in words. So yeah, it's raining now. Panda Bear is waiting for me. Assalamualaikum. Barlo~

Old friend to Best friend :')

I just got this poto in Facebook. Hell yeah Nurina looks pretty *innocent jap...* Lol k. And something strikes to my heart. I miss her. I miss all my girlfriends. All of us just stay at home since PMR is over. Seriously of course we wanna hangout together, but haih as they said "No transport = booooom! No lyfe". Eh wtf am I talking about? -_-

I met Nurina when I was 8, umm around 2005 maybe? We were in the same class. Fortuitously, our moms were bestfriend when they were in the university. Years after years, both of us became very very close. Some people even thought we are siblings. Hehe. My parents really love her and they are glad that both of us stilll close with each other until now :')

From the way she takes care of me whenever I need her, I know that she really loves me. Am I right, Nurina? NO?! Okay... *tunduk bawah kesat air mata* Lol. Oh yeah the most thing I love about her is she always believes in me. To have someone who believes in us even if we make a wrong decision is the best thing ever, ya know. I feel blessed, Alhamdulilah. I know that she believes that I can move on. She believes that I'm pretty whenever I feel insecure.

Thanks Nurina for our friendship! I love you. I can't wait to see what is going to happen for the next 10 years between both of us.

Barlo

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

My fav photo with my cousin, Ferman hihihi.

Harlo evelibadi,

Uhmm this is quite a serious entry. Lol jk, not really.

So many things happened to me for these past few days. Since I got my BB, I found out many truths from him. Maybe Allah wanna show me all these shits. I'm not gonna share about those shits here. Plus, nobody would ever care about it, rite? So yeah..

My friends, even myself, told me that I'm such a selfish girl to do that decision. People said, "if we love that person, we have to let em' go, watch em' happy even if it's hurt".  But not for me. Yes, I'm selfish. Deal with it.

But to be honest, I'm trying so hard to make myself happy. I learn how to play guitar by myself. And guess what, it works! I already found a solution of how to deal with these shits. Yeay me hewhew.

"True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.,

It’s when he ignores you and you still love him,


It’s when he loves another but you still smile and say ‘I am happy for you’,


When all you really do is cry and cry."

And yeah, I keep reminding myself that he could never find a girl like me. I know I'm different. Eh wait, I'm not different, I'm limited edition. Lolz. I think, I'm done with this 'love' things. I love to be single. And hell yeah baby, I'm totally ready to mingle with all my friends *flips hair*

Last but not least, I hope karma will hit him one fine day.

Barlo

No lyfe *sobs

Harlo

Ya Allah. Tak boleh tidur lah sia. Nah, some photos with my Panda Bear. Apa lah nasib badan jadi Forever Alone. I'm dying weh I'm dying uhuk uhuk T.T

HAHAHAHAHA, I CAN'T EVEN..

Copying Panda's face. He got a very very very sad face ya know. I'm such a copycat miow miow *lick my hair* Okay that's disgusting :\

Oh yeah I make a video, too! Annoying much lulz.

I can do 'the kiss' exactly like the old woman did in Nasi Lemak 2.0 movie. How cool is that?! *muka miang



Okay, solat isyak then solat Hajat. Goodnight evelibadi! Barlo. 

Kim K's Wedding

Harlo

So yesterday, I watched The Kardashians for the whole day. Blurgh. I need a lyfe, life, l!f3. And for today, I watched Kim's Fairytale Wedding for the i-don't-know-how-many-times. I watched it over and over again.

It's raining right now. Oh uuu perfect time for cuddling..With Panda Bear hewhew forever alone. I found my mom's magazines. I read all of them and muahahaha *evil laugh here* I found Kim K's wedding issue.

Loike seriouslayy I love The Kardashians. I wish I have a family like them. I wish I have sisters like them. I don't even have a sister. What-a-sad-lyfe. And everytime I watched it, I can feel something that relate to myself. Eceh, k stop it. I used to love Khloe' cause umm my friends always said that her attitude is exactly like mine. But now, she is getting fatter. And I hate Lamar Odom. 

Kalau boleh, I want a boy who can rock and roll their outfit like Scott :> But with a better attitude lulz.

It's every girl's dream ; Big dress, big cake, big wedding and a big man :P Okay Syuhada loves big man. I love skinny :3

Barlo

Jantan or Boys?

Harlo

I've been single for about 10 months :3 And I have to admit that I have discovered a lot of new things about myself and boys. I met many new people this year, all with different attitudes, different ways on how they holding theirselves.

I can't deny that there were also other boys who trying to be close with me. I was okay with that, but still trying my best to avoid myself from being in love with them. And yeah I just wanna share about one of them.

He called me and said that he miss me. I laughed and I promised him that I will text him around 8. So yeah we texted and flirting with each other but suddenly he was being so serious ;

Him :Mana bf? Heh

Me  : Lol whut? I don't have a bf. Forever Alone ya know

Him : You dah lah comel, takkan takde orang nak

Me  : I know right? Takde T.T

Him : Dulu I nak, you taknak terima I

Me   : Time tu saat genting nak PMR. Nak buat acane? Takdir....

Him : Kalau I sekarang, can ah?

Me  : Insyaallah, can. Lolz kidding

Him : Omg. Scandal jom? :D

Me  : But I don't know how to be your scandal. Euw I don't want to..

Okay, that's it. Lulz say whutttt? Scandal? Ada lagi benda se-lame tu eh? Then I stalked his twitter, and he tweeted one of my seniors, "I love you, babe". Hahahaha omg I CAN'T EVEN... It was just too funny. I can't believe ada lagi jantan macam tu -_- so immature.

Zikril sayang, you don't be like him eh. I miss you :'(

Barlo

Penakut.

Harlo

Nady just called me. And yeah I was shocked when I knew about this ummm unexpected news from him. He is the one that I told in the last entry.

He told me that he has a girlfriend who maybe the one that he bring yesterday. Okay I was totally fine with that cause he is not mine. And I told Nady about that. Nady was shocked too, so she called him to find out what was really happening.

After that, Nady called me to explain about it. He searched for a new girlfriend because his heart is broken because of me. Like seghiously becauze of me *british accent* He found out that I'm still waiting for my ex. So he didn't want me to feel that he is forcing me to be his girlfriend.

Uhmm nvm then. I'm extremely happy with my life right now. I don't really need someone to be mine. Thanks babe for waiting for me. I appreciate it so much. You are such a great boy. It's okay, we can still be friends aite?

Barlo

This is my moment, my moment

Harlo

Lol that song keeps playing in my mind right now -.-

So hell yeah PMR is over *evil laugh* Me sho happy cause me want to enjoy like a boss in this fucking house.

Nehh, i should stop cursing -_- But seriously i got so many stories to share in this awesome belog hewhew. Not sho awesome but yeah awesome enough for me to express everything about myself *flips hair*



I feel very happy for these few weeks. I don't know why but I'm so happy. I guess I already found a new boy in my ohsem and cool life. He makes me happy. He makes me smile for the whole day by just smiling at me. I know this is very weird cause I was very depressed before this.

I'm not gonna tell everyone about his name cause I'm sho shy ~.~ Hahaha. Oh man, how i wish you guys can feel how happy I am. And how excited I am while typing all these words. Hmm but I don't think that i'm gonna be in a relationship with him. Let's us just be friends forever. I'm done with all those shits. Like seghiously I don't want to deal with those shits anymore.

What else eh? Eyyyer.. Oh yeah PMR was nice! I did my very best. If I don't get straight As, it will be fine for me cause I know I had did my very best.

Emm okay I'm sleepy. Barlo beautiful readers *hugs*

Focus at Ryan, evelibadi. He is cute, right? *wink* 

I just watched this video. Okay it's really amazing :O iPhone 4s ni boleh cakap dengan kita. Bagus sangat dengan diri yang Forever Alone ni. Hmm should ask my dad to change his mind. No need that BB anymore. I want this! This! 

Yes, everytime i try to move on, you're always right there. Why? Well as you said, you have your new life now, right?

My conversations with Amili and my girlfriends keep playing in my head

"Come on, dia tu takde future."

"Atikah, he doesn't deserve your tears. Move on"

"Dia tu hopeless. Useless. Tak boleh pakai"

"Kalau dia kaya, maybe dia ada future. Weh kau menyesal nanti"

"Move on, Atikah. Move on"

But i know no matter what happens, Allah is always beside me. Always :')

Francisco #2

This is a short note for her.

Eyy how are you, sis ? I miss you. Jumpa hari-hari, tapi kita tak cakap. Pandang pun kadang-kadang nak kerek je kan. But i miss you. I miss us. Eyy remember how youu used to be my 'kakak angkat'. Those memories are so beautiful. And you're the only person who call me "Ika".  Lepastu kita makan aiskrim neighbour sebelah aku sama-sama. Oh i know your favourite flavour! And kau selalu belanja aku buat rambut? Hew hew. Oh lepastu kita pergi pasar malam , and ada aunty tu cakap kita macam siblings. K, tu memang ramai cakap  -.-

And kau ingat Adila? Lepastu kau ingat tak kau teman aku date dengan Aliff? We watched cerita hantu paling sakai. Hmm apa lagi? Oh oh aku ingat lagi kau buat open house and aku sleep over dekat rumah kau.

Haish too many memories between us. I miss you, my sister. Aku tak tahu kenapa dengan kita   :(

NOW TELL ME THAT YOU MISS ME TOO! TELL ME! TELL ME! Tsk T.T

PMR Trial 2011

Harlo evelibadi,

So .. hmm haih *long sigh

I got 6A and 1B and also 1C for my trial. Damn it. I got C for my Maths. The last exam before trial, I almost got A. I don't what the hell was wrong with me during the trial. I was sick, but I cannot blame my sickness.

I'm very dissapointed with myself. If I could, I will cry. But there's no point crying over it. I hope I will get A for Maths in the real PMR. I really hope.

That's all for now. Barlo!

I found this song in the Youtube. And honestly I'm crying because this song really suits my situation right now.

You don't wear my chains ~

Barlo

Barlo

Raya 2011

Assalamualaikum, kalau tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab sayang.

K whatever aku copy Maria Elena, pahal?! Tak puas hati meh one-by-one. Hew hew.

Serious, malas nak rotate. So, this is my family time Malam Raya. Or .. one night before Malam Raya. They were watching football. Whatever ..

Selamat Hari Raya, everyone. Stay glamz. Barlo!