I walked out from the MRT and took another MRT -from Orchard Road to Marina Bay. As I was waiting for the train, I realised that someone was watching me. A girl, with pink singlet and blue jeans, holding VS bag and waiting for the train too. I smiled but when she smiled back at me, it was not really a smile. There was something in her eyes. And its not some kind of happiness. She was sad.. I can feel em. I don't know how but I just can feel em.

But anyway, Singapore was fun. Saw TMJ but he was not with Fazura..... Happy 2013, everyone.

Such an achievement for me hahaha. Tumblr-ish yet? No? Ok.

GOODBYE 2012 #1

2012 - the best year (but still can't beat 2010) 

F R I D A Y

Harlo

Mom came home with books today and I was beyond excited eventhough it's not a novel, more to recipe books haha but it's ok as long as I can read and enhance my vocabs so it will be fine with me.. I'm trying to be a bookworm like I used to be :( 

And yeah I'm gonna post some photos from my Aunty Betty's wedding. And also Aunty Nana's wedding.. Was so excited for their wedding. Uh all my family members are so pretty......and there's me *sigh* y do i always look ugly i hate myself oh god

Aunty Betty and Uncle Bruce. Glad that I've finally well atleast met my arabs sedara eventhough I don't really know most of em. Not my side so yeah.. and all our sedara from Indon also were there. But still, I have no idea siapa diorang hahahaha. 

Say hi to my Atuk and Tok Sanah! hehe Atuk, you look pretty in this picture.. And from Aunty Nana's wedding.............

Hi to Karl, Aunty Nana and Ariana. The wedding was spectacularhhhhhhhhh. Congratulations for both of them. Wishing both of you lots and lots of happiness.  Mmmmuah xx

I'M NOT READY FOR 2013 H E L P

Harlo

I'm on my red flag....saja nak bagitahu. Aduh benci lah macam ni. I know this sounds weird and wrong but I everytime I bangun tiba-tiba dah period, mesti macam "omg if i had sex last night, chances are, me getting baby bump in the next 3 months" hahaha weird ikr. 

So anyway, I tengah try urut every 3 months sekarang coz everytime I period, mesti menstrual pain yang macam "urgh kill me now pls urgh my uterus urgh can i just die now" . Macam there's a monster trying to get out from your uterus! Pretty sure all the girls out there know exactly how it feels like.. Makcik urut tu pun cakap teenagers sebaya macam I kena rajin urut so that senang sikit nak period takde lah macam nak mampus tergolek atas katil. And satu lagi senang tak naik badan. Lol ok makcik urut. Dia ada cakap badan macam I senang naik bila dah 20 something lagi-lagi area peha and bontot. Hm?... I'm not ready for that!

Pernah sekali tu, I period and kebetulan ada exam bio pulak esok nya. Perut sakit sangat mencucuk-cucuk so I decided to read all the bio notes sambil baring then BAAAAAM tertidur sampai pukul 6.30 pagi. Ya allah lepastu sakit nya perut macam dah nak terkeluar uterus semua damn it. I cried and takboleh nak bangun. Abah thought I was trying to skip school lolwhut coz he knew I was not prepared for the exam. But whatever last-last he bought my pinky pills that turned out as my 'penyelamat' sekarang! 

With the help from the pills and the massage, sakit yang physically tu dah kureng sikit BUT emotionally? YES. Kalau boleh, angin jor. Maaf kan saya. I really hope they will invent some kind of pills that can also heal my period pain emotionally. Kidding.  

Barlo

NOVEMBER

Amazing life, amazing life I have. I cannot wait for 2013, coz I'm such a lazy ass right now. I HAVE TO DO MORE REVISION YES. I seriously will start revising on December. Yep, this time   for real, insyaallah. Barlo

Found this picture in my laptop hahahahahahahaha hai there, Azrin. 

 Just me playing around with my purdah after watching Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Hehe

excuse my Q&A

1. 1: What are you wearing?
2. Black tee and shorts

1. 2: Ever been in love?
2. Yep. A lot. 
3. 
   
4. 3: Ever had a terrible breakup?
5. Once. 

1. 4: How tall are you?
2. 165 cm maybe? 
3. 
   
4. 5: How much do you weigh?
5. 55 kg 
6. 
   
7. 6: Any tattoos do you want?
8. I wish I could get atleast one :(
9. 
   
10. 7: Any piercings that you want?
11. 3 

1. 8: OTP?
2. i'd love to.
3. 
   
4. 9: Favorite Show?
5. Keeping Up with The Kardashians

1. 10: Favorite bands?
2. Foster The People 
3. 
   
4. 11: Something you miss?
5. To be able smile without faking it.
6. 
   
7. 12: Favorite song?
8. Miss you by Foster The People. 
9. 
   
10. 13: How old are you?
11. Sugary sixteen.
12. 
    
13. 14: Zodiac sign?
14. Capricon.
15. 
    
16. 15: Hair Color?
17. Dark brown.
18. 
    
19. 16: Favorite Quote?
20. Put Allah first in your life and you'll be happy.
21. 
    
22. 17: Favorite singer?
23. Umm Mark Foster (so far)
24. 
    
25. 18: Favorite color?
26. Hot pink.
27. 
    
28. 19: Loud music or soft? 
29. Soft. 
30. 
    
31. 20: Where do you go when you're sad?
32. To my bed lah of course. 
33. 
    
34. 21: How long does it take you to shower? 
35. Depends. Most of the time, I took half an hour.
36.  
37. 22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
38. Depends. 
39. 
    
40. 23: Ever been in a physical fight?
41. Yes. 

1. 24: Turn on?
2. Someone who smells nice, a great cook.
3. 
   
4. 25: Turn off?
5. A liar. 
6. 
   
7. 26: The reason I joined Tumblr?
8. Because I used to not have a life.. 
9. 
   
10. 27: Fears?
11. Judgmental bastards, cockroaches, ghosts, losing myself and someone that I love the most.
12. 
    
13. 28: Last thing that made you cry?
14. My fucked up end year exam result.
15. 
    
16. 29: Last time you cried?
17. An hour ago. 
18. 
    
19. 30: Meaning behind your url
20. Nothing pfft it's just an url.
21. 
    
22. 31: Last book you read?
23. My chemistry book. Lol
24. 
    
25. 32: Last song you listened to?
26. Young folks.
27. 
    
28. 33: Last show you watched?
29. Keeping Up with The Kardashians.
30. 
    
31. 34: Last person you talked to?
32. My mom.
33. 
    
34. 35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?
35. She's my sister from diff parents.
36. 
    
37. 36: Favorite food?
38. I don't even have one. I eat everything.
39. 
    
40. 37: Place you want to visit?
41. Makkah.
42. 
    
43. 38: Last place you were?
44. May Villa. 
45. 
    
46. 39: Do you have a crush? 
47. Yes. With someone who is impossible to be mine.
48. 
    
49. 40: Last time you kissed someone?
50. A few months ago. I kissed El, my love of my life.  
51. 
    
52. 41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?
53. An hour ago because of my stupidity.
54. 
    
55. 42: What color underwear are you wearing?
56. Brown (my skin color) -the safest color
57. 
    
58. 43: What color shirt are you wearing?
59. Black. 
60. 
    
61. 44: What color bottoms are you wearing?
62. Blue.
63. 
    
64. 45: Wearing any bracelets?
65. Nope.
66. 
    
67. 46: Last sport you played?
68. Swimming.
69. 
    
70. 47: Last song you sang?
71. Ayat-ayat Cinta by Rossa.
72. 
    
73. 48: Last prank call you remember doing?
74. Never had one.
75. 
    
76. 49: Last time you hung out with anyone?
77. With my girls. A few weeks ago.
78. 
    
79. 50: Favorite movie?
80. 500 days of summer.

 

Aku pun tak tahu aku ni yang bodoh ke apa. Takde A, satu gagal. Duduk lah kau dalam 5ST2 tu diam-diam. Menangis pun takde guna. Tak, masalah aku ni satu je, aku tak dapat catch up apa teacher ajar. Kadang-kadang rasa pergi sekolah membazir masa je. Masuk tuition pun lambat so basic aku memang hancur ler cerita nya sekarang. 

I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET HIM LAST NIGHT AT SETIA CITY MALLAND I THOUGHT HE DIDNT COME BUT HE WAS ACTUALLY CAME BEFORE HE WENT TO MALACCA! NOW PLS SOMEONE KILL ME FOR BEING GELABAH TETEK. 

Hah November!

Well hello thurr, 

Ah finally I have some 'me' quality time yay! Eh no I'm gonna have that 'me' quality time for the rest of this month hehe.. End year exam was """"good"""" and by good means umm I don't know.. I didn't do my best, I could still watched The Kardashians during the exam weeks heheh. Uh-oh we got a badass ovah here :p

So I'm still in my mood in which I don't really want to do anything but I know that I should really start re-organizing my room, hangout with my friends and do some online shopping bcoz my aunts' weddings are coming really soon zzzzz. I actually have this weird, kind of problem when it comes to wedding- and the problem is, I ALWAYS HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR. Yep, that's it. I mean, they always come out with this brilliant idea where their family have to wear the same color so that the photographer can recognize us easily yknow but urgh its so annoying.. And now for Aunty Betty's wedding, I have to wear a fucking blue tops. Like uh really? Blue? I dont even have one. But nevermind, anything is possible with online shopping!!! YES!!!!

Haha ok I think its enough.. Going out with Rasyiqah and maybe Asyraf next week pls pls say "Amin" after you read this. Coz I really wanna hang out with Asyraf.. As a friend. Yep, as a friend. Yep. Yep. Say Amin pls! 

Barlo

Raya 2012

Harlo

Abah would definetely kill me if he knows that I'm blogging right now haha. But anyway, I miss blogging!! I miss to be able express everything through words and pictures, that kind of stuffs yknow what I mean..

I actually just came back from Johor Bharu a few days ago. And still with my Raya mood omg *bitch slap myself*

My face before the make up session. Hehe my eyeboggies are getting worse sigh. 

After makeup!! Takde beza pun. My baju kurung was forever on my body sepanjang dekat Kedah. The weather was freaking hot man pffffft. 

And BOOOOM finally in JB on the third Raya. The only reason we were wayyyyyyy too excited in JB was because of El oh yep the cutest baby in our family (I used to be the cutest before him so yeah) lol. Loving the pashmina and my kimono-style top from Nichii. 20% discount, it was worth it ok.

Alhamdulilah for this Raya, feel so blessed with my amazing, big family from the both side. Uhm barlo maaf zahir dan batin xx

Love you, El

Singapore

Ok, first, it's gonna be a very long entry. So yeah.. 


When the girls went to Genting Highlands without me, yep without me... Me, myself and I and ofcourse my family went to Singapore! Hehe.

Sorry for the bad quality -.- And I look seriously ugly in all the pictures because hey we're in Singapore. So I decided to be natural and not care about my face and stuffs. 

It was a very very nice trip. It's like back to your childhood and be a kid for the whole day hahaha can you imagine that? In USS, yes, you can :p

When you're in Singapore, everything is so cheap..unless you mulitply your money to RM lol bam you will start saying "Mahal nya!" "Sama je kat Malaysia pfsh" haaaa. But somehow it's worth it ok worth it. My uncle, he works in Singapore, so imagine his salary when he converts the money to RM hehehe kechaing kechainggg

The ugly side of me. Look at my eyebags... I didn't get enough sleep pun the night before this trip (alasan). Mom had a dinner at her office so we had to gerak from Klang to Singapore quite late. 

 

The adventure begins after the Far Far Away park. The rollercosters are seriously babi. Uh I almost faint in Mumia Indoor Rollercoster. And Aina didn't let me to ride the most amazing rollercoster in USS :( 

THE GREATES ROLLERCOSTER I'VE EVER SEEN! OMG OMG OMG

After my epic tragedy in the indoor rollercoster, Azman and I (oh yes just both of us) decided to go for Transformer Ride hehehehe. 40 minutes beratur, main 20 minutes jor. Nice huh. But it was da bomb, I tell you. Optimus Prime siap cakap "Your braveness had save the world" :''''') 

We went back around 8 like that and oh yeah I had the best Nasi Goreng Ayam in Singapore! Aaaaaaaa sedap! 

Ok bye

So many things to post oyeah oyeah gonna post photos from Singapore like really soon xx

The best advice from me

 

What else can I say? I love all my fav people so much, but sometimes, people change. Feelings fade and all you need to do is, move on. People will always leave. Dengan kerelaan ataupun tak. That's why we have to appreciate every single thing in life. Remember, forever doesn't exist. This is reality. We live in reality. No, we're not Snow White. We're not Cinderella. Prince charming is a bullshit. 

We have to learn to let go. It's the hardest thing to do, I know. But, you have to. Believe in yourself. Believe in Allah. He knows the best. You might think that life's unfair or whatsoever, of course, it is, but sometimes those pain will make you stronger. Stronger than ever, I tell you. Be heartless. You need to be heartless. You were not born to please people. Think.

Don't be too positive. You need to balance your positive and negative sides. Positivity will lead you to high expections and trust me, it will destroy yourself. I have a very bad trust issue. So, I do not trust people easily. But when I do, I really do. I do not quickly forgive those who has pissed me off. That's the best side of me...for me lah en.

Be careful to who you give your heart to. Because when you give your heart to someone, you also give them the power to hurt you. Oh, "pretty is a pretty diz" - always keep these words in your head. It means, doesn't matter what you look like, it matters what you do. You just have to be nice. Act nice. Treat people good. And you will feel the love. No regrets, just love. Remember, love doesn't hurt, loving the wrong person does. 

Love yourself. Love your body. If you want to be skinny, do something so that you can be skinny. If you want to be smart, do something so that you can be smart. Nothing is impossible. Life's hard. Yes, I'm sixteen, but I can feel that I'm stronger than everyone. And I'm proud of myself. 

Hahahahah, omg I'm such a wise girl. Lol barlo x

Call me crazy, don’t believe me, do whatever you want, but I have this thing, where I can remember every dream I have every morning. Most of my dreams are about Azrin. Weird huh? 

Yesterday...my dream started with the place he proposed me, Starbucks Sunway. I was chatting with my girls and he was there too. He ordered "something" that he once ordered for me on our first date with Alia. We stared at each other and then I walked away. 

..........................

Baaam, I woke up. And continue my sleep..

.............................

I was at my house, checking my facebook account. I don't know why but I can feel my heart was breaking when I checked his page. "Azrin is in a relationship with _____" I couldnt  remember her name but I knew it was a dream. I tried to come back to reality but failed. I fell down and cried the hell out of my lungs. Azrin came to me, like, he was trying to pull me put from the dream. But I could not move my hands. My hands, they were shaking. He smiled, and went off with his new girl. I cried, and cried and cried and baaaaaaaaaam, I woke up again. And I could feel the tears on my face. I cried in real life too! "Ya allah. This is scary.", I said to myself. I tried to stand up but.....hm. I checked my phone, and got 6 notifications from whatsapp. One of em was from HIM!!

"Hello? I miss you.." 

Awww I miss you too x

Lucky me is lucky

Harlo

Idk man, but I feel very lucky right now. I love my beautiful, amazing girls so much omg. I'm being such a bitch for these few days but them, my girls are always cheer me up no matter what. Whenever I feel insecure or ugly or fat or even potato, they will always say good, positive stuffs to me. They are wonderful xx

I love you, my annoying, smart, beautiful girls. Forever and always. Thanks for always be there for me. Muah xoxo barlo

I’m probably at my lowest point in life but no one seems to take notice, not even those I am close with. I feel like slapping myself over and over again. Such a sensitive bitch. 

Is this because of my unstable mood? Yes. Is this because of him? Exactly. Is this worth my time? No.

I admit, I cried a lot today. Maybe I was just too tired with swimming and horse riding. Even when I was sleeping, I can feel my broken heart. I've lost a part of my heart..again. Gonna blame myself for all these shits. Such a stupid girl for falling too fast. He was a big mistake. Big, big mistake. 

Barlo x

My stupid lappy is being sooooooo annoying these few weeks and haih it's killing me. I tried to find app for blogger in my phone but epic fail lol I don't think they have blogger app. Hm I wanna cry rn. Barlo

Adam's 7th birthday partaaaay

Happy birthday, Muhammad Adam Jaafar.

Get ready for the ugliest photo ever..

......

Hahaha I'm so funny should marry myself.

Atuk, I love you xxxxx

And last but not least.....

Our birthday boy wohooooo

Ok barlo everyone. 

April

Ok let's do this fast. I can't control myself to update this pretty blog hahaha. 1 week to go before Mid-Term and honestly..I didn't do any revision yet. Please, please slap me now!

Had a really great month for April. 

1. THE AVENGERS!! Amagadz the movie was awesome I can literally die. Loljk. What else can I say about them? Thor will always be my favourite superhero. Oh and Loki the Weak God  too :p hahaha gonna watch it again with Alia and Khan for my 2nd round. And with Uncle Ayip for the 3rd round, insyaallah. 

2. I bought a new sandals and shawl. And a new dress also from Cotton On. But haih Mama took a wrong size so yeah I'm gonna wear the dress for like a year only lah kot? I love my so-called 'exotic sandals'. It was love at first sight ok hehehe. 

RM29.99 because by adding 1 sen is a lil bit too expensive hahaha. Awh I just love wearing them. 

3. Got an invitation to Hari Kecemerlangan wohoo. Feel proud of myself :p

Hahaha omg y lah my face like dat?! Zzzz and my eyes. Bodoh betul.

4. Went to Subang with Fikri and Nana. Penat ok tunjuk jalan dekat diorang ni. But we had lots and lots and lots of fun at Subang Parade before decided to lepak at Aeon. Lol 

So yeah that's my new dress from Cotton On! Hekk look at our pervert face. I love my eyeliner in this photo D: Bought a new liquid eyeliner and make-up remover from Elianto. Oh yes, I prefer Elianto's for my eyeliner or make-up remover, or whatsoever remover. And the new body scent smells so good. Oh oh and have you heard about Katy Perry's perfume? Purr and Meow! something? It smells sooooooooo good. Gonna buy it as soon as my perfume Dior habis hehehe. 

Hah just realized I spent a lot in April. But no regret, just love :p Ok bye. Study time! Barlo..